Day 1 and 2 recap: The curtain is lifting!

Yesterday was great! I ate slowly and concentrated on how I felt as I ate. I also tried to taste my food more than I usually do. I came in a little low on my calories, but I figure that being a few calories off of 1200 won't kill me, especially after the last 2 weeks of eating so much.

As far as exercise went, man it was hard! I did my strength and and hour on the treadmill. Our treadmill is in a small room with very little ventilation. Guess who was dripping with sweat at the end of the work out. Overall I felt good about what I did, and am still motivated to keep going.

Today I did cardio. To be specific I did Turbo Jam cardio party 1. It was fun, but difficult. Still I made it through and am sticking to my guns about eating healthy. I don't know what our plans for dinner are tonight, but hopefully it will be enough to satisfy me and achieve my calorie goal.

So the first two days have been a success. I am keeping my goals in mind. Of course the usual healthy goals, but also going on a cruise for my 30th birthday and getting down to healthy weight so that I can have children. Those are the big motivators right now.

I've been kidding myself.

You know that feeling where you have been working hard and not seeing any results and you feel like you have somehow been cheated? That has been me....except without the working hard. Today is our first day back from a 2 week hiatus in Seattle. I have definitely gained weight from all the eating out and laying around. Don't get me wrong I was expecting to gain weight, I just had hoped it would be less.

So today I was honest with myself and said, "Self, we really haven't been trying." So today I have started again. I have eaten well so far (Fiber One for breakfast, a salad with protein and fruit for lunch) and plan on finishing the day with a healthy dinner. I am also planning on doing some strength and cardio later, but first I am going to take a nap, because I feel like I am about to fall over.

I will try to find a way to post my workouts on here, other than typing them out. I have planned for the whole month of October! The goal is to finish all of those workouts and lose about 4 lbs. I am hoping my weight will decrease 4 lbs., but if it is only 4 lbs. of calories, well that is fine as well.